Rockin Out Christmas Style

My sister and I on our way from our dads to mums on christmas... this photo pretty much shows what we are like when we're together...just a tad insane!! We spent the whole car ride back singing at the top of our lungs!

1 Week of Adventure

I'm currently planning my first by myself overseas trip to New Zealand...I thought I'd start with somewhere close, cheap and with my native language of English!
The plan thus far is to fly into Christchurch and hang out there for a week getting my adventure on my list so far includes

• Paragliding
• Skydiving (I want to skydive in every country I ever visit)
• Adrenalin Forest
• Bungee
• Jet Boating
• Swimming with Seals
• Stay at the Jailhouse accommodation
• Aquarium
• Science Alive
• Ghost Walk
• Christchurch Cathedral
• Orana Wildlife Park
• Eat lots of lovely local produce

 I wonder if I can fit all this in, in 7-9 days!! I hope so
 

I want.....

what they've got....

 ...that lasts

Beaten - Bruised - Bleeding = Deceased

Controversial Bar Conversation

I had a couple of my favourite regular boys in last night and they can drink everytime they come in they drink atleast a bottle of rum between the two of them. About half way through a bottle one of the boys started a quite interesting a controversial conversation regarding his marriage...It really got me thinking about relationships and marriage and if they can survive the 21st century the stats say the chances are slim...I'm not entirely sure how the conversation started but....he spoke about being married and how he has cheated on his wife before, how he wouldn't mind if they both agreed to sleep with other people but also how he would never tell her he cheated on her because she would walk...so this makes me ask Why stay then? Why cheat on someone and then still want to stay with them? His response was that he liked coming home to someone familiar....which is a bit of a cop out I believe BUT they haven't had sex for 6 months and their relationship is just coasting away, boring (his words) no spontaneity, so I ask why don't you get spontaneous do something different his response if he does something spontaneous his wife gets suss on him and thinks he has done something wrong...It was quite the interesting conversation but you can never make a opinion unless you know both sides of the story...

I think when situations like this arise in relationships it's never one sided and both parties involved are probably feeling exactly the same...so TALK people TALK if you're not happy in your relationship I'm sure your partner probably isn't either in the end what have you got to lose something that is already struggling and unhappy just be open and honest and have a conversation it will probably save your marriage and you will both be happier in the long run and your most likely feeling and thinking the same things.....

Why and at what point in a relationship do we stop communicating and start hiding our feelings from the person we are meant to love the most??? Why are we so afraid to have a conversation and lay it all on the table??? When do we lose that connection and start looking at each other differently???  How can you make a relationship last for 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 years???

I would love to hear others views on this, do you feel the same? How long have you been in a relationship? married? and how do you make it work? Do you think you need to have a conversation with your significant other?

I bought my first car yay!

After the drama that was trying to find a car in a couple of days I found one. It's a 2004 Hyundai Elantra Sedan 2 litre, with only 37,000kms on the clock, new tyres, it's like brand new and the inside is so clean the back window shelf had cobwebs!! I don't think anyone ever sat in the back. It was $9,000 which I think is a pretty good price for a car that has done pretty much no kms, one owner and ahead on services. I hope I can get a few years out of this little baby so I don't have to think about car shopping again....it is quite stressful. So when I went to pick up my car yesterday it has a massive red bow on it, balloons from the side mirrors and I got a big bunch of lillies...how's that for awesome customer service...Thanks James Frizelles Tweed Heads (Heavens Waiting Room)

The universe is out to get me....

It all started on Monday...

• rearview mirror fell off car
• 99% sure I got a flashed speeding
• went to buy a car only to find someone bought it 2 minutes prior
• Booked accommodation for BDO and PAID! only to be told they don't actually have accommodation
• The people I booked accommodation through had to find us accommodation we've gone from a luxury apartment to a one bedroom hotel room
• The restaurant my sister works at will most likely be closing on Monday and 15+ staff will be out of work
• There is a car in the paper I want to buy and they won't answer their phone

 Please universe let me find a car by Monday and let my sisters job be secure

How can someone See me when I cannot See myself

This is something that I have been struggling with for I do not care to remember how long...I seem to suffer from a form of social anxiety which seems to stop me from being able to be myself....it's quite strange actually...I've been psycho analysing myself I have come to the conclusion that there is no single trigger it seems that some how my mind decides whether someone is a "threat" or not and my reactions come from there...also if I work myself up by over thinking something I freak out....I'm sure I haven't always been like this but maybe I have....and I need help, I think it has something to do with thinking people are constantly judging me which I know they're not...argh! See I tend to not tell people things like this....no one knows I am and have been struggling with this for years because I think there reation will be bad or they will think I'm being silly..which is INSANE I know this but I can't get past it. I get the whole sweaty palms, racing heart, not being able to think and general mind freak out....I have decided I should definitely go to the doctor and see what they can do for me...quite funny considering I have been thinking that I should go to the doctor for years and get help but then I think that they won't believe me and I will walk out empty handed and ten steps backwards...I just need to pick up the phone and make a appointment which is something I used to struggle with making phone calls which I now do many many times a day so why can't I make this call????
I think just writing this has given me a chance to breathe...

unhappy news

I received a email on Friday that the Make-Up school I was planning on doing a diploma at next year is closing up :( so now I don't know what I am going to do as they focused on a lot of special effects stuff more so than fashion make-up which is what I want to do....so looks like I will be looking for somewhere just as good. Melbourne might just be on the radar

bruised...

a quick play with my new bruise wheel

 

Ben Nye......Love!!

I bought a few Ben Nye products from the U S of A oh about 2 months ago but to cut a long story short they finally arrived yesterday....yew! The excitement is just enthralling...and I cannot wait to start testing them out.

Some of the products I'm super duper excited about playing with are 

Ben Nye Death Wheel

Ben Nye Bruise Wheel

Ben Nye Stage Blood mmm peppermint tastes pretty good too

 

Halloween

Crazy times, awesome fun, a lot of time lost and some uber cool costumes...

 

I Survived....

My skydive was just amazing...I was nervous and excited well before I arrived but less so as I went through the training and got on the plane. My tandem partner/instructer/guy who has my life in his hands Stu was totally awesome and funny and made me feel very comfortable what a awesome job that would be. It was about a 40 minute flight up to 14,000 feet I didn't have any time to back out lol! not that I would...by the time everyone else had jumped we were the last out and from the point of are you ready, to jumping was like 30 seconds...I don't know how to describe the feeling kind of like freedom, not what I imagined flying to be like, I got the fly through clouds they feel amazing, the free fall was about 60 seconds my sister thinks I went a tad longer than everyone else, I also got to steer the parachute which was super cool... I was on such a high all day I would do it again in a heart beat, if I was made of money I would do it every weekend...it's love! I wish I had that high right now as last night was Halloween in Oz and I had a party to go to got all zombied up and rocked out til the wee hours of the morning....I've had no luck trying to get a little nap in today now I have to work til 10pm tonight....

I'm going to fly....

Yes....I will be jumping out of a plane on Sunday eek.. I'm finally going skydiving yew! This is something I have been talking about doing for soooo long it's not funny and considering I am changing the way I am thinking to Why Not? and just fucking do it already LOL! I booked my first skydive...I'm super excited and just as nervous what kind of crazy person jumps out of a perfectly good plane??? that would be me...I have a full ground crew of friends and family so hopefully I will have some pretty rad pictures to put up!!

Kudos to OzHead

Soooo when my sister moved out she took her GHD straightener with her....at first i was like damn you! (sisterly love) and so i did some research and came across some really awesome reviews for OzHead straighteners so i had a sneak peek at their website and there are some serious pros there

• Only $154.50 nearly $100 cheaper than a GHD
•  Awesome reviews at product review
• 3 year warranty
•  AUSTRALIAN owned and operated
•  FREE mini straightener...which does curls 1000 times better than a GHD straightener and they hold without product
• 4 heat settings
• 14 day money back guarantee
• The cord doesn't get all tangled up
• My hair feels a lot healthier after using this compared to the GHD

So all in all I'm super satisfied the only think I would change is think pink written on it but hey it pretty much lives in my bathroom draw so not such a issue. It also comes in a felt box with a carry pouch.

Shopping

I've spoken about my love  of aussie label Evil Twin before and have just purchased this top from their summer collection from Market HQ they also stock some other super cool brands like Mink Pink and Staple. I'm going to have to add a lot more from this site to my Christmas wishlist...

p.s FREE shipping nothing makes me shop online more than FREE shipping...meant to be

Yoga

I've just completed my first yoga class after a year of not practising....it was wonderful, I feel super relaxed and stress free. I can't wait to also get my yoga body back. Yoga may seem like a simple thing to do that isn't hard at all but it is quite deceiving it's quite a work out and the body ends up looking as hard and flexible as the positions, plus the mind is given one and a half hours of quiet.

Yoga = Soul Satisfaction!

Soul Discovery

I've begun on a path to find my truly satisfies my soul....it is beginning to be a wonderful journey from reading awe inspiring books to listening to music that I have discovered through random means, buying crazy weird clothes and not caring what people think, finding cute little musical instruments that make my mind still playing with them...trying to find a way of quieting my social anxiety without going down the medication road, feeling at ease with who i am and what i am doing, stopping to smell to roses and enjoying the simple pleasures i choose to seek...life is good!

Obsessed

I'm super obsessed with crazy cool funky leggings worn with mini skirts over the top...

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Facebook deletion = Soul Satisfaction

I feel so much better since deleting my facebook there is some sort of freedom in getting rid of it, there  is a peace of not having to go in a site to see what people you never see are doing, to see friends and listen to what they have been doing rather than already knowing what they have been up to, it opens back up communication in its finest form speech. It is allowing me to listen to myself and what I want to be doing, I have so much spare time now...it's quite funny that a "social" networking site can be so unsociable...

un·so·cia·ble/ˌənˈsōSHəbəl/Adjective

1. Not enjoying or making an effort to behave sociably in the company of others.

2. Not conducive to friendly social relations.

I really feel for the people not that much younger than myself who have known nothing but social networking and internet everywhere..it will be interesting to see what kind of generation comes out of this technology overload....I was explaining all of this to my boss and he said "you must be getting old, you sound like us now" 

I do hope that someone reads this and decides that they too have much better things to do with their time and ultimately choose to also delete their facebook and discover what the "real" world has to offer....it is a amazing place

Imag-ine

Isn't it sad that people now define themselves more by facebook than music...to me that's insanity

 do not let yourself stop yourself from what you yearn to do...

 don't be afraid to be yourself

 I do love balloons especially popping them :)

Change is happening

This last week has been full of change it all started on Friday when my mother was offered either a redundancy package or 6 hours a week work which was a bit of a no brainer she is taking the redundancy which means she has to hand in her company car which means I am now looking for a cheap little car considering that I am driving mums other car as she will need it when she finds a new job. Yesterday my sister finally secured a rental property which has been a long time coming as she has never been able to find something at the right price that she likes....man I will miss her she is alot of fun, we have one of those sibiling relationships that will never be able to replace we understand each other (which for me is miraculous as alot of people don't REALLY understand me) she's only moving to a town down the road so I will still see her. Yesterday I started reading Eat, Pray, Love, there is something about the idea of this book that speaks to me just packing up and finding yourself, this is something I now struggle with daily, who am I and what do I want? I have probably said this before but I  have deleted my facebook I think it is something that holds me back I spend so much damn time on it that I could be doing other things like reading, finding new bands of interest, doing make-up, making prosthetics, finishing all of the projects I have begun...so that is what I am going to do I am going to finish all of the things I have started and I am going to tick off all the things on my list that I want completed by the end of 2010. Interestingly I did read a article in the paper yesterday which stated that young people from 16-25 now find that facebook defines them more that music which used to be the top dog....What is wrong with our society that we are so lazy that we can sit down for hours and play stupid facebook games, stalk people we don't even know anymore and just waste time.
We should be doing amazing things with out time, things that are good for the body and the soul....

Wowza.....the talent is just amazing...

While my mouth was watering over all the delicious delights on etsy I came across some amazing cakes an art form of their own...

 3D Strawberry Cake

Baby Butt Cake

Chocolate Shoe Cake

Castle Cake

Halloween Cake Topper

if i could get these into the country i would.....

 

Home Made Oreo Cookies

 Hearts Affire Heart Shaped Pie Lollies

 Italian Rocky Road

 Chocolate Cupcake Pops

Isn't it strange that looking at pictures of food can make your mouth water...